Halfway Between the Gutter and the Stars

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2013 Resolutions: September
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ideal_insomnia
Oh, well. I have to be honest, it doesn't seem like I'd be writing more in my LJ any time soon. However, I'm still doing that Resolutions thing to the very end! It's a nice practice. And more than that, I already have a faint idea about some brand new resolutions in 2014. Well, we'll see.

Trial and all the judicial proceedings: Still waiting for the last phase to end. Also got some of the other red tape stuff going, not a pleasant work but had to be done.
Work: Only bits and pieces here and there, but, oh, it's not like I was just sitting around drinking tea all that time.
Health: Guess what? I fell ill during the very first week of the September! The weather was nasty - cold, damp and very unstable. Lots of ill people around, central heating still not working... it was a dangerous month for health. Recovering took me forever! Thankfully, I had someone to look for me while I was really sick, but, nevertheless, an outrage. Such a total waste of time! Gotta take care now. I don't have time for that.
Getting out: welp, as you can guess, there isn't much I could do with a lung-splitting cough, so...
Regime: Oh, more or less ok. I did have some trouble falling asleep a while ago, still not exactly sure why. Maybe too much red tea...
General mood: I feel safe. I'm not exactly sure when was the last time I felt so safe. It feels great.

Room for improvement:
Study: Gotta step up my work! The last exam is right ahead of me, I better be ready!
My other blog: Oh.. I don't really know... >__>

Summary:
that illness really took away a lot of my time. However, it wasn't a bad month. Not at all. In the very last days of September there was even room for some very very special experiences. I am grateful, truly.

2013 Resolutions: July & August
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Hey-hey, haven't updated this journal in quite a while. So, it's technically already the last day of summer, a good time to write some summaries.

Trial and all the judicial proceedings: In fact, all the nasty trial buisiness is already over, but there are still things to do. Gladly, it is now only a question of time and we've already started working on the very last thing that was left undone. Definitely a good thing. However, once that's finished, there's another thing I have to do... hmm...
Work: Almost nothing in August, but quite an amount in July! Had a really, really tough all-nighter once, and I hope that will never happen again. Getting too old for this xD
Health: Oooh, I went to see some doctors (finally!). Had a number of check-ups to do. Nothing serious so far, but have to do a couple of tests more when I have the time. Also, I've been to the dentist... meh, costly buisiness, but necessary. The only bad news so far is that I have a problem with my wisdom teeth (all of them, lol!) and gotta do somtheing about them soon. So.. still a lot of things to do.
Apart from seeing the doctors, I feel fine. Lost some weight though, not exactly sure why.
Getting out (new one!): Well, I mentioned it earlier that it would be good for me to get out more. And I actually did! Like, I've been to Geek Picnic - that was pretty cool but I am, unfortunately, way too lazy now to write about that in detail. There were also other places, but... oh, I'm such a lazy blogger :D
Regime: You'd be surprized, but actually I had some luck here! My regime is very far from being exemplary, but it's better, at least more stable. So.. way to go.
General mood: ...hm. I'm not exactly sure how to summarize this. I feel great, yeah. But... instead of going into details, there's only one little thing I'd like to mention: in the evening yesterday I started to wash dishes (wow, how trivial, I know) and I turned to the kitchen table to clear it. There were two plates there and two spoons. Two. That probably sounds silly, but I'm so accustomed to eating alone (at home) that seeing this really made me feel weird. In a very happy way. It's all about the details after all.

Room for improvement:
Study & my other blog. Well... I hardly did anything at all, I confess. I might feel bad about it, but not that much. I didn't plan for that to happen, but I guess I took a vacation of sorts. So no big deal, really. The only thing is - I have to start working for real in the months to come.
Also: The only thing I'm sort of ashamed of is the fact that I hardly even communicated with some of my friends... my head is just so full of stuff right now, but that's really no excuse.

Summary: I have the strangest feeling about this summer. It was both very long and very short at the same time. To think about it, a lot of things happened. But on the other hand, everything sort of happened very fast. I guess that's what happens when there's no miserable thoughts making your days long and unbearable.
So... everything's ok? Yes, it is!

And just to make this entry a bit less tedious: my mint started to blossom a while ago! *__*


Midnight Song
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O Mensch! Gib Acht!
Was spricht die tiefe Mitternacht?
"Ich schlief, ich schlief—,
aus tiefem Traum bin ich erwacht:—
Die Welt ist tief,
und tiefer als der Tag gedacht.
Tief ist ihr Weh—,
Lust — tiefer noch als Herzeleid.
Weh spricht: Vergeh!
Doch all' Lust will Ewigkeit—,
—will tiefe, tiefe Ewigkeit!"
(c)


Ah! The indescribable beauty of this piece!.....
I can hardly say I speak even the simplest German, but oh! this must be read in the original form. Lust — tiefer noch als Herzeleid!..

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Suddenly! Sculpture!
god
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Among all the arts of the world, sculpture is probably one less known to me. A shame it is. That, however, doesn't mean there never was a sculpture that amazed me. There were quite a few. But I only wanted to write about one little piece. A rather well known piece, I suppose. It is The Cathedral or The Cathedral Hands by Auguste Rodin.
It is a small piece and a very simple one - two right hands belonging to different persons, apparently about to clasp. However... there's just something in the way those hands are positioned. The space between them seems to be filled with tension. As the description at the Musee-rodin.fr states, "Emptiness was a factor that Rodin used to allow for, and, as Rilke pointed out, “the role of air had always been extremely important” for him (Rilke, 1928)." Emptiness, indeed! Space that is vacant and not vacant at the same time. The tension between elements apart. That is... so Gothic (architecturally, of course)!
However, Gothic or not, there's also something very moving in those hands. The energy, the tension - everything adds up to a deep sense of intimacy. No matter how many times I look at the pictures of that sculpture, there's always that feeling that there is so much going on there. Ah! Less is more indeed, at least with Rodin.

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2013 Resolutions: June
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Late again! Oh, whatever. June was a busy month, simply packed with stuff.

Trial and all the judicial proceedings: Hm. Still not quite finished. Have to take the issue into my own hands and just finish it already!
Work: A lot of it. Well... to think about it, not THAT much, but with everything else I had to do, there was hardly any time to just sit around drinking tea. Phew.
Study: A LOT of it. Actually, I managed to forget about an important paper I had to hand in at the department office by the end of the year. Aaand... my advisor had JUST left for her summer vacation and I still needed her to sign that paper! Er. Long story short: if I didn't made it, they might've kicked me out of the University, all because of that thrice-damned paper! xD But everything was ok in the end.
Also, we had lots of Japanese classes. Like, three or even four times a week.
Health: Not bad. Might've used a bit more exercise though... also, gotta go see a doctor some time soon, I keep forgetting about that...
Entertainment: Err... to tell the truth, I hardly even watched anything at all and didn't really read that much. However, I was quite entertained most of the time nevertheless xD
General mood: Good. Weird, isn't it? :D Well, that's the truth! Most of the time it felt really nice. And even much more that just nice sometimes. Oh, well :)

Room for improvement: same as last month! Ugh! >_<

Summary: You know what? It's really nice to have a summer that actually feels like summer and not like some weird... time... full of misery :D And I'm not talking about weather! It's been a while. A very very long while.

Random pic is random
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Shamelessly stealing my own photo from my friend's instagram xD

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Random thought is random
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ideal_insomnia
*yawn* Oh, I'm sooo tired. I have so much to do these days! However...

Lately, my mind had been occupied with a very strange idea about my personality.
I'm not complaining, but there are certain... areas of life where I was dramatically out of luck in the past. Especially in my youth (10-18 years or something like that). I won't deny it, that time that made me feel quite miserable at times AND "endowed" me with lots of fears and issues in years to come.
A misery of any type is, of course, valuable experience too, but lately I was somehow staggered by the new (for me, it is) and surprising idea. That were it not for that terrible bad luck in the past, I could've grown to be a rather unpleasant person. At least, at certain levels. I mean, I know quite a bit about myself, I know it could've been different.
However, the aforementioned absence of luck tought me how to treasure many, many things properly. It also tought me patience (to some extent at least), and sympathy (I do have a tendency to be rather pitiless and harsh at times), and else...

Anyway.
Mostly, I'm not the type of person to feel regret, I don't spend time lamenting my past. But more than that, my bad luck could very well turn to be my good luck after all. IF it makes me a more considerate, sympathetic or caring friend (or more than a friend). IF it keeps me from hurting people I value and appreciate.

But that is not for me to decide.

2013 Resolutions: May
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Woops, late again! May felt like a really long month. Lots of stuff going on.

Trial and all the judicial proceedings: Done! Wooohooo! Well, almost. There are still things to do but, hopefully, the most unpleasant part is over. Much quicker than I expeceted too.
Work: Didn't do any. Intentionally, because of the next item on the list.
Study: Victory!.. My first really important article is on its way to being printed and two of the three exams are finished with excellent marks. Yay!
Health: Unfortunately, I overstrained myself a tiny bit while preparing for exams and ended up ill. Sort of ridiculous, as the weather is really hot. Oh, well...
General mood: In fact, really good. Feelin' mellow and relaxed. Which is extremely surprising even for me. Haven't done any work this month and I don't give a damn. It's high time to enjoy myself for a while*!

Driving this road down to Paradise
Letting the sunlight into my eyes
Our only plan is to improvise
And it's crystal-clear:
I never want it to end.
(c)

Room for improvement:
Regime: Meh... still no luck.
TEH cool-story blog: Damn, I MUST write that post! I have to!..

Summary: A good month. Managed to do what I had to do and kept my wits about me. Gotta really do something about that terrible lung-splitting cough though x__x

*Oh, wait. The same moment I wrote this I actually got e-mail with some work xD But it's ok, now I have plenty of time.

緑の座
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Meanwhile in Vyborg
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Ресторанный (не)критик #6
tea
ideal_insomnia
Нанесла пробный визит новому китайскому местечку "Превед""Нихао" на Невском проспекте. Самые первые впечатления.


~photo by the-Village.ru


Местечко небольшое, но, в целом, уютное и тихое, что особенно приятно, если учесть, что дверями заведение выходит буквально на сам Невский. Интерьер спокойный, в бежевых тонах, внутри достаточно светло. Музыка приглушенная, поют то на китайском, то на английском, но что-то такое не слишком запоминающееся. Итого - есть не мешает, разговаривать тоже, в целом обстановка приятная, хотя индивидуальности ей не хватает.
Я заказала: салат "золотые нити" с грибами эноки (also known as опята зимние), баоцзы с говядиной и чайник молочного улуна (0,5).
Обслужили быстро. Сама еда в целом понравилась: салат пряный, освежающий, немалого объема. Баоцзы румяные снаружи, мягкие внутри, начинка сочная и хорошо приправленная, тесто солоновато-сладковатое. Чуть-чуть жирные, но они такие и должны быть. Кстати, салатом и баоцзы я вполне себе наелась. К чаю тоже особенных нареканий нет, еду запить - самое оно.
Короче говоря, испробованное сегодня скорее понравилось.
Есть, тем не менее, пара сомнительных пунктов в меню. Далеко не всё вызывает желание в ближайшее время это пробовать. И лапши почти нет, что совершенно возмутительно!
Мой счет: 505 рублей.
Чего опасаться: двери в ватерклозете! beware, она имеет, кажется, обыкновение заедать. Если застрянете - попробуйте потянуть на себя, а затем провернуть ручку. Но вообще, починили бы они её, конечно >_>

В остальном пока понравилось. Не самая выдающаяся и определенно не самая запоминающаяся еда на свете (да даже в Питере), но пойдет. И уж явно это лучше, чем непонятный "Нямбург", который был на этом месте раньше.
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